Newsflash – I’m Not Perfect

Why do people say that? If they only knew the real me. Not perfect by any means. Not the perfect parent, the perfect wife, or the perfect caregiver. Yes, wanted to be a perfect caregiver to my husband – but failed in so many ways. After three years of increased responsibility of care giving, I became tired and cranky – ok let’s get real – angry and frustrated.

My counselor husband sat me down just two weeks before he died, and we had the conversation. He said, “I cannot stand your negativity any longer. I do not purposefully get up without my walker and my oxygen. I just forgot to use them. One of these days, I may forget who you are.” 

Wow, as usual he put me in my place ever so gently. Of course, I cried and apologized for my attitude and asked him to pray for me to be more grace giving.  It worked and I found myself depending more on the Lord to help me be kind instead of nagging.

God’s timing is always perfect. His love is always perfect. Those last two weeks were so sweet as John continued to decline and needed me more for his care.

Thank you, Lord,  for relieving me of the guilt so often associated with caregivers of being so – not perfect. –

If you are a caregiver – I pray that God will enable you to depend on Him more each day to be a grace giver. May you depend on His strength and power to comfort and care for your loved one. Because

He is perfect!

Psalm 18:30 

 As for God, his way is perfect:
    The Lord’s word is flawless;
    he shields all who take refuge in him.

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Pat from Georgia

Pat Strickland is a wife, mother, grandmother and daughter of the King of Kings. She has been a pastor’s wife, a registrar at Young Harris College and a memoir writer. Her desire is “to seek God with all my heart and He will provide the much more in my life.”

2 thoughts on “Newsflash – I’m Not Perfect”

  1. Dear Pat, thank you for your honesty & transparency. I am blessed by your testimony & example of how to be a humble, loving, caring, forgiving, repentant, praying wife, completely dependent on Jesus for all things at all times. So thankful for our perfect Savior who is in the process of perfecting us for a perfect future in our eternal home. I know John would agree that he was blessed to have you as his wife! 💘🥰

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